This is probably the worst week ever… It’s the one year anniversary of my brother’s death on Tues.. so I’ve just been havin a real hard time lately… On top of working my 12 hour waitressing shift on Saturday (My boss hasn’t been in, I haven’t even seen her so I haven’t be able to put in my two weeks yet)… having total insomnia lately… I feel like I’m about to have some sort of breakdown. I just really really miss my brother. He was one of my best friends b/c we were so close in age and soo much alike as well.. My heart is broken ;\ When i actually do fall asleep (on rare occasions) all I do is have messed up dreams about him. It’s awful! ;\ I know Tuesday is going to be a really hard day for me. I’ve just been totally out of it! I’m going to try and take a nap though (i REALLY need sleep), and then I’ll be on the cams in a few hours. So I’ll see you all there. Xox.